T'was the night before Christmas...

I woke up this morning and the world was covered ina blanket of white. Not enough to impare any driving, just enough to be beautiful and look like Christmas. It is almost 10am now and the snow has all but stopped. By the time we hit the road it should be fine. We are heading to Sackville for the skating party at around 12:30 and then the day just gets busy. Once the running starts it just won't stop until the 28th. I will need a vacation from my vacation. Although I did get to leave work yesterday at 12:00 and get the last of the shopping done with Gil. It is nice to actually spend some time just hanging out with him. He is heading back to the Evil Ilse but not until the 3rd of January. Oh yes that is right my birthday IS on the 4th, how very nice of you to notice. Yes not only will he have been away for HIS birthday but he will be gone for mine as well. I am trying to be cool about it but the truth is I am some where btween pissed and broken hearted. I love my borthday and Gil always makes it extra special. It is my princess day.
But let's not dwell on that today. It is Christmas Eve and dammit I intend to enjoy myself! I am going to go put a pot of tea on, finish the last of my gift wrapping and enjoy the last quiet moments of the holiday.

I wish you all a very merry Christmas!!!
and if you like to laugh watch this. But I warn you it is NOT FOR CHILDREN. I laughed so hard I think I opooed something inside. But it is VERY offensive.


My DREAM Christmas tree! Ha so funny.

Sorry folks...

I am sorry I was such a cranky puss yesterday. I was feeling very bah humbug and I let it get the better of me, today I aim to improve. I am sneaking a little computer time at work as it has been, on whole, been a very unproductive day. We had a little Christmas pot luck fun today, funny office stuff. I am not really used to working in this kind of enviornment. I actually really enjoy it, the 9-5 life suits me well.
I got to have a brief word with my wonderful brother this morning. I called and bugged him at work. I took it upon myself to make sure he was not running off to the alter today with the other 670 gay men in England. Don't get me wrong, I WANT he and Simon to get married, I can't think of anything I would loe more for my brother then to be able to live in wedded bliss with the man he loves, however I want to be there! I must be apart of it. He married once without his family there to help him celbrate, he is not allowed to do that again.
My little nephew Louis turned 9 this past week and I can't believe so much time has passed. I haven't seen him since he was still in nappys, it is hard to believe he is now 9 and sooo smart.
So happy birthday LuLu, you are an AMAZING boy.
well I must get back to work now, one more hour until quitting time. Cross your fingers Gil will be home tonight.

Check out the creepy Nutcracker guy!

HOHOHO

Zen and the art of Meghan Maintenance

I confess I am a UHM woman, Ultra High Maintenance, I can be very demanding. But I don't think it is unreasonable that I was Gil to be home in the days leading up to Christmas. Dammit we have stuff to do and I am tired of only seeing him on Sundays! It is Nova Scotia, you can't get any Christmas shopping done on a Sunday. I am tired of asking other people to please come drive me to the store. Last week I had to ask my older brother to drive me to the store so I could get some tampons. THAT WAS NOT COOL, not for either of us. Oh yes I could have walked, it was only -10. Or I could have taken the bus it would only have taken 2 hours to make a 5 minute trip. Gil suggested a cab, I told him what he could do with a cab. I am a spoiled little girl and I know it but I am used to having Gil home to run errands with me. I am used to having someone to hang out with when I want to hang. I am used to getting my own way and I like it. I don't know who is finding this project more stressful me or him. Now before you go passing judgement on me let me just say this... The project has been going on forever! I packed up all of the old house on my own, I moved us, I have been here unpacking all alone while in the midst of starting a new job and trying to get ready for the "holiday" (holiday my ass! Do you know ONE person who is feeling relaxed? I don't!!). I am doing it all on my own and I feel partnerless. I have seen him 6 days this month. I am exhausted, I mean it EXHAUSTED! I need Gil because he is my rock, he keeps me sane. I am lonley without him. So maybe I am a codependant basket case but who cares? I am a woman in love who has lost the holiday spirit 'cause it does not feel like Christmas without my sweet Baboo.
Having said that thank you to EVERYONE who has helped me out in the past few weeks. I have the best friends in the world.

Oh sweet internet I missed you SO.

THANK GOD! I thought I was going to die if I went one more day without a bump, is there a 12 step program for this?
So life has been pretty insane. We moved on a Thursday and on Monday morning I started my new job, as well Gil left for PEI. I have been totally burning the candle at both ends I am tired and very burnt out. Last night I just fell apart. I was so tired and SO sad that Gil was heading back to PEI after only being home for two days. I just feel apart. I can't remember when I was that low. All in all I had a crappy weekend. We had a big snow storm that turned the city into a zoo all weekend. Gil and I snipped at each other the whole time he was home. WE went to his office Christmas pary and someone spilled beer on my camera and now it is very broken.
Anway I don't feel like writing now, I am exhausted, I am going to have a bath, a glass of red wine and then I am heading to bed.