How it is in MeggyTown

So I finished my first course of Clomid. It went like this... The first few days everything was fine. A few hot flashes but nothing that was too hard to deal with. I finished the course and I thought "wow, that wasn't half bad." Then next day I hit the wall. HARD. I think I cried for 24 straight hours. I felt like hell on wheels. I thought is was possible that I might kill myself or someone else. But it passed. And here I am. Happy, in love and god willing ovulating my little heart out. Feel free to send good thoughts or keep me in your prayers. I can use all the help I can get.
Gil by the way was a wonder. He was patient and kind. I am the luckiest wife alive.
Tonight we are staying in, we are hold up in our bedroom eating KD and watching Season Four of the West Wing. My life is pretty kick ass!

What kind of day it's been.

Well I am having a hard week. I am so sick I don't even know which way is up. I can't talk, I have a virus in my vocal cords of all places. For crying out loud I talk on the phone for a living!!!!
I am exhausted. I feel like pooh. I don't like anything.
To add to my stress I am having the worst cycle ever and and AND tomorrow I start the Clomid. I don't mind telling you how scared I am right now. I am excited but scared. This is the big deal. This is the next step for real. No messing about. We are being serious about this baby making. I am so worried we will finally get pregnant, have a baby and then it will turn out that I am a rotten parent!

Life in the fast lane!

Well here we go. Starting the Clomid in the next few days and I don't mind telling you I am scared and excited and nervous and and and.... so many things.
Gil and I are talking a lot, communication is the key issue here, I don't want trying to get pregnant to be a strain on our relationship. By all accounts the emotional side affects of this drug can be horrific. I want this so badly but I don't look forward to hormone hell. I guess it will be better when I know what to expect, right now I am all just jumbled up. I am scared. I am scared about lots of things. I am scared about the meds, I am scared I won't get pregnant, I am scared that I will and then I will turn out to be a terrible mother... etc....
anyway I guess I am a bit of a basket case. blah blah rant.