Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Charity begins at home...

As the weather gets colder I start thinking about the holidays, baking and decorating, and people in need. I don’t know what exactly it is about the holidays that makes us more charitable, I wish I could say that it was something that I carried through the whole year but that is a lie. Well that is not entirely true, when I can I donate clothes and household items to charity, I give to breast cancer research and for several years I sponsored a child in a third world country. But that is thoughtless charity, which is to say that I am not thinking about the intent when I do it. When I donate clothes I am trying to get them out of my house, the money for the child came out of my bank automatically every month and I never really gave much thought about who it was intended for. I believe that charity isn’t just an action but also and intent.

You may know already that my wonderful husband volunteers most of his Friday and Saturday evenings in December to work for Operation Red Nose and last year I went with him for two shifts as well. And I loved it. It was totally rewarding.

Another thing we did last year was to contribute regularly to the food bank. And not just the crappy stuff in our cupboard that we don’t want to eat ourselves. When we go to the grocery store we pick a couple of items and buy extra, it especially good when things are on BOGO. We try and pick things we like ourselves because if I were receiving help I would be sad if all I got was Kraft Dinner and cans of soup. I don’t want to give “charity” I want to give someone a helping hand.

My plan this year starts November first. Each and every time we go to the grocery store for ourselves I will pick up a few things for the food bank. I want to donate some money too so the food bank can buy perishables.


Monday, October 12, 2009

More thoughts...

Can anyone explain to my why it is that I check my email a thousand times a day? I don't get that much email, especially since the advent of Facebook. I rarely get any email of consequence, mostly forwards from friends or junk. I don't mean for Viagra or anything but stores who I have foolishly given my address to, etc.
Anyway, I check my email way to often. I also check Twitter and Facebook compulsively. In many ways it has replaced my tv watching habit. I did take a Facebook break for 5 days and it was fine. I kicked tv for the most part except the odd indulgence of a dvd bender once and a while. For example I have been on a Criminal Minds binge this weekend. It helps with all the chopping and peeling to be immersed in murder and mayhem.
Anyway I don't even know why I am rambling on about this. Except that I have been thinking about how much technology is part of our daily lives. The computer, the tv, the cell phone... technology is everywhere and it permeates my life, our lives. Right now I am in my basement watching tv, writing this on my laptop, being warmed by an electric heater, while the washer and dryer whirl away while my husband is up stairs blowing up alien bugs on his computer. We are totally typical in our social circle. But I can't help but wonder what it would be like with out all these means of interaction/ distraction. Would I read more? Visit with friends more? Clean my house more? Would I have longer conversations with my husband? Would I sleep better at night? Would I find it easier to tap into my creative energy? Would I be a better cook? Would I know how to knit or sew? I won't be able to answer those questions of course. I can't and wouldn't remove all this technology from my life. It is a part of who I am and the universe that I live in.
But it is certainly worth recognizing that I spend too much time with all these electronics. That I should shut it all down once and a while. Like now... yeah... good idea.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Thanksgiving Chez Hilltop!




Post 300!

Well here we sit full of turkey and all the trimmings. I am in my favorite chair, my beloved husband is snoozing on the sofa as is his father. In the kitchen I hear my mother in law starting to clean up. I am not going to try and stop her, it would be futile, plus I have been cooking and cleaning all day and I welcome the break. It is a little chilly but I have on comfy slippers and a good sweater. I have a cup of tea on the go. Life is pretty much perfect. I have so much to be thankful for and I am glad I took sometime to recognize that this week.
`I feel like I am right where I should be in my life and that is such a good feeling. No things have not happened the way I planned but I don't think that is a bad thing. I know that I seldom discuss my religious beliefs here and that is not by design necessarily, it just has not been terribly pertinent. I do believe in god and I do believe that what ever she/he/it is, they are present in my daily life. I think I have never been more then I can handle even if I didn't think I could handle it at the time. I think that my life is formed by the choices that I make but I feel divine presence in the good choices. That is how I know they are good. Anyway I guess what I am trying to say that I am feeling the goodness in my life, in my universe. Thank you god or universe or Mom. Thank you for this beautiful life.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

OKAY...

So we aren't going to have any heat or hot water until Tuesday or Wednesday. That totally sucks but we have decided to look at it as an adventure, like camping only with more comfort. So I choose to see how fortunate we are. We have power, we have phones, we have running (cold) water. We have a comfortable bed, a space heater, computers, lots of food, lots of friends and family on the way for a beautiful Thanksgiving meal. We are blessed people and that is where i choose to focus my energy. Thanksgiving or not it is important to recognize how blessed we are in our lives. It is so easy to get caught up in what goes wrong and what is bad. Even a day when a dozen things go write it is the one thing that goes wrong that gets stuck in our craw. I am certainly guilty of this kind of thinking. I have a problem with rolling with changes in the plan. I tend to get cranky and irritable and even if the new thing is going to be fun I resist and resist and dig my heals in. I let it ruin my experience. I often let it ruin other people's as well. I really want to change that, I don't like that about myself and I am pretty sure that Gil doesn't like it either. I want to be a more positive human. This is a goal I am setting right now. Yeah! That is it!

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Friday, October 09, 2009

Trying to be thankful....

Well today my desire to be thankful is being tried by the daemons of home ownership. I am entering Thanksgiving long weekend with no furnace which by extension means no heat and no hot water. I am supposed to have my in laws in for a big turkey dinner and my house needs cleaning. I am so frustrated. I told Gil that I thought we should cancel dinner and he didn't. Which means on top of everything I have to try and do it all with NO HEAT AND NO HOT WATER!

Yeah I had a big thing plan about being thankful for Friday. but right now I am just too cranky. Maybe I will try again latter.

stink.
stank.
stunk.

Thursday, October 08, 2009

Day 4 of thankfulness

Freedom!

I am a Liberal voting, quasi Catholic, pro choice, university educated female. I write this blog and I can pretty much say anything I want. I might irritate you but no one is going to come knocking on my door, steal my laptop or throw me in prison. If I did get in trouble with the law I know that I have the RIGHT to a fair and expedient trial. I have clean drinking that comes right from my tape, but my life is so decadent that I also have water that comes cold and perfect from a cooler.

I can walk down the street unescorted, wearing whatever I please. I associate with whom I please. I also come and go as I please, and although I choose to be accountable to my husband, I don’t fear for my well being if I don’t ask his permission to leave the house or if I decide to have coffee with a male friend.

When I am sick I walk into a doctor’s office and I never worry if that means we can’t pay a bill that month.

I have all these things because I live in a free and just country. I am extremely thankful to be Canadian.

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

Follow up to Monday...

I have been thinking a lot about what I wrote about the person on the bridge at rush hour on Monday and I have to tell you I am feeling pretty bad for saying it. I was tired, I was frustrated and I probably needed something to eat but that doesn't really excuse such a lack of compassion. I still think it was a cry for attention but maybe attention will save that persons life.
Who ever you are I hope you got help and I am sorry I was a callous bitch at your expense. God Bless.

Giving Thanks Part 3... A special wedding anniversary episode.

On this day three years ago I became his Mrs. I pledged my life to him and took his in return. We took our vows under a tree and we meant every word we said. I believe that as surly today as I did three years ago. Not once in 1096 days that we have been married has he given me one moment to doubt.
Of course there are moment, minutes even hours that we are cross or annoyed with each other. Sure there are times when we are frustrated and uncommunicative. We are real people not characters. Moreover there was nothing in our vows that said that every day has to be perfect. I am grateful that we are so comfortable in our relationship that we can have bad days. I am grateful that we know that an argument doesn’t mean there is something wrong with us.
I like thinking about our wedding, I like looking at the pictures and watching the video. I like celebrating the joint conquest of another year. But the wedding and the pictures and the music they are just symbols for the thing that I really love; our strong, beautiful marriage.
I am thankful for:
Every dish he has ever washed
Quiet conversations after the lights are off
The toothpaste on my brush every morning
The drive to work every day
The millions of in jokes
The random back scratches
Breakfast for dinner
Endlessly re-watching West Wing
Snuggles in bed with the cats
The compliments too numerous to count
Honey Curry Pasta!
Never letting me win at chess
Flipped laundry
Made up songs
Secret Squirrels
Hotel soaps and shampoo
Comfortable silences
Forgiveness
Dates at the book store
Him

Tuesday, October 06, 2009

Thanksgiving part 2....

Wow, I am a lucky girl. When I was getting ready to write this today I had a LIST of thing I might want to talk about. Imagine a whole list of the ways in which I am blessed.
I am sore today from my work out this morning and usually I would find that annoying but today I am kind of enjoying it. I did something to my body this morning, I used it for some other purpose then sitting like a lump. I don’t love going to the gym. I don’t love getting up at 6am and trying to fit it all in before work. I don’t love being sweaty and gross. I don’t love showering at the gym. I certainly don’t love the old lady ache that seems to set in to my spring chicken bones for the rest of the day (am I not stretching enough??) However I really do enjoy the “high” after the work out. And I love knowing that I am doing something for me, something that is going to make me better, stronger, faster. I am grateful to have the means and opportunity to do this. I am absolutely thankful for a gym buddy who encourages me, supports me, cheers me and comforts me. I unwaveringly pleased that I have a body that will allow me to do all these things. As I mentioned yesterday working in the hospital I see people all the time who would give anything to complain about spending 20 minutes on the elliptical trainer.

PS... I am also really thankful for extra strength Tylenol.

Monday, October 05, 2009

Thanksgiving...

Okay I really do want to talk about Thanksgiving but before I do there is something I have to get off my chest.
At least once a week for the past month or so my commute home has been hampered due to a bridge closure. Not the kind for repairs or maintenance. Not the kind for an unfortunate accident. But the kind for a bridge jumper. Asshole! I don't mean to sound like a heartless bitch however... Threatening to jump off bridge during rush hour traffic is not a suicide threat, it is a cry for attention. Trust me, I know from cry for attention. It is an expensive, ridiculous cry for attention. Yeah it frustrates me. Sorry. I so try and be compassionate but I have my limits.

Okay, back to Thanksgiving....

As we approach the Thanksgiving weekend I thought I would dedicate my little spec of blogosphere to that which I am grateful for. the

Today is a cold, rainy, dark Monday, a day which is, on the surface, difficult to be thankful for. I have a cold creeping in and I am tired. Waking up in the dark is starting to wear on me.

It would be very easy to get caught up in these details. Truth be told I spent the bulk of the morning being Ms. Cranky Pants. But I am making a conscience decision to cheer up. It is no fun being in a bad mood. It makes the day insufferable, it is no way to spend time which is really precious.

If you stop and look around the hospital you find lots of things to thankful for. Grateful for my health, my strong body (cold be damned). For universal health care (amen to being Canadian!). Gratified to be in a position to make the day brighter for someone who might need it. I don’t just have a job, I have a job that I enjoy. I have co-workers that I like. I have bosses who are kind and giving. Not everyday is perfect but who has a job that is? I am happier. Happier then I was last year.


Sunday, October 04, 2009

It's cold, grey and raining today....

I love fall, I really do. But pictures like this make me realize how much I will miss summer.

Saturday, October 03, 2009

Wooo!

Tonight my totally amazing husband and I celebrated 3 wonderful years of marriage. Can I tell you how lucky I am?! How blessed I feel to be married to my very best friend?! I know that has become a cliche thing to say but it is so true. We had this beautiful relaxing day. We had an awesome meal with stellar conversation and then we came home to relax some more. We always enjoy our anniversary, it is always special because we make it that way but this year we deliberately made it low key and it was just what the doctor ordered. I love it when we go away and have grand adventures it is always loads of fun however this year we have been away so much we both need to recharge our batteries. This day we got to be ourselves and celebrate our marriage for what it is, a source of strength and comfort for both of us. The makes me happy. That makes me really happy. Yay us.

Friday, October 02, 2009

Food! A Vegas retrospective.

Do you know what we did the most in Vegas? Other then freak out over the heat? We ate. Oh man did we eat. And I love to take pictures of food. In fact I would give up my money counting career in a heart beat if I could take pictures of food and get paid for it....
Above is the Cobb salad I had for lunch at the Bellagio the first day we were there. It was a long hot walk but worth every second of it.


The breakfast buffet at Paris. I seriously could have stayed all day. I mean really, sausages with sweet potato in them? Are you trying to kill me with pleasure?

Lunch at The Rainforest Cafe. Homemade potato chips... *drool* It was loud and I was stressed out having been lost for some time in the Excelsior but this sandwich made it all worth while.


BEST STEAK EVER!
Say no more.
YUM.
(The Wynn)


One of the few times we had room for dessert.
Homemade S'mores at the Wynn.
OMFG!

My very first taste of grits. So strange, so yummy.

Baby Octopi.
'nuff said.





















Dinner at Tao.
Sincerely one of the BEST dining experiences of my life.