Man we are getting married in 28 days! If you want to know why I haven't been posting much now you know. Even the smallest of weddings seem to take so much time and energy to plan. and ours isn't all that small. not huge, but not small. 45 people, which is really just our good friends and family. Not even all our family, none of our siblings are able to make it because of the date change, which has been the source of MANY tears in the past week. I have become so emotional, even more then usual if you can picture that!
I feel like I have been living to shop recently. Man weddings are expensive. I can't even imagin if we were going for a BIG wedding. We went today to this cool wholesale place to buy flats of pop, it was wicked. It is the kind of place where shop owners go to get supplies. Also the prices were amazing. We have a tonne of booze and pop sitting in our basement now, it is very cool. We bought our wedding rings this week, that rocked and brought a LOT of tears to my eyes. I can't wait to have that ring on my finger.
Gil is down stairs right now making us some dinner on the BBQ. I am relaxing. I love relaxing. I had a massage today at the Interlude. It was so amazing. I feel so spoild. I am getting ready for a walk with Sara and then we are going up the hill tonight to drink "Laura Sunrise's" and relax some more.
Tomorrow is my shower which I am SOOOO excited for. I will fill you in with all the details later but now I have to go help Gil find masking tape.
Yeah!
Saturday, September 09, 2006
Sunday, August 27, 2006
the count down....
Well here we are, 41 days until the wedding. Everything is in full swing and I am starting to feel really good about everything. There was a while there I was starting to think that we had made a mistake in changing the date. Most crucially our decision meant that a few very key people were not going to be able to join us, like our siblings. That really sucks, and it plays on my mind a lot.
However I am looking forward to the event. I am really looking forward to a good party but most of all I am looking forward to being Gil's wife. Every day that goes by I find more reasons why I love him. He is such a good man. And he is mine.
However I am looking forward to the event. I am really looking forward to a good party but most of all I am looking forward to being Gil's wife. Every day that goes by I find more reasons why I love him. He is such a good man. And he is mine.
Sunday, August 20, 2006
I have not given up...
Although I have been very busy I have still be writitng. I have been trying things over at LiveJournal. While it does have some features I like a lot I think I still like it here better. I think I am going to switch back. If you want to catch up on what has been going on over there you can check it out at http://mmed.livejournal.com/
Now that I have writen on both today I really like Blogger a lot better. Maybe just because I know it better.
All right I'll be back to write more later but now it is time for breakfast! Woo!
Now that I have writen on both today I really like Blogger a lot better. Maybe just because I know it better.
All right I'll be back to write more later but now it is time for breakfast! Woo!
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
What not to wear...
Because Truth really is stranger then Fiction
I am still scratching my head over this one but it just keeps me going back to Fark for more.
A shout out to my Fab Big Brother!
My brother is SO cool and I wanted him to know it. Check out his WAY amazing shop which he owns and operates with his equally amazing partner Simon.
I love you guys!
I love you guys!
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
Hola!
Well yesterday was weigh in day and I lost 3 more Lbs. For those of you who are following along at home that is a grand total of 22lbs. Needless to say I am pretty proud of myself. I would love to say it was an easy week and the pounds just flew off but I feel like I really worked for them this week. I had a tough weekend that included a total break down in the middle of the Superstore because I thought my sweetbaboo had left me (in reality he had gone to get something out of the freezer and was totally baffeld but sympathtic about my breakdown). Some days it is REALLY hard to not just eat what everyone else is eatting. It is hard to have to think before just chomping down. There are moments I HATE having to figure out how many points are in a meal 'cause I just want to eat and have it over with. However those times of frustration are totally out weighed (haha get it?!) by the sheer joy of seeing the pounds come off. I can wear clothes now I haven't worn in ages. I can actually see a change in my face and DAMN that feels good.
I am also starting to figure out my triggers. What drives me to the point where I just don't care what goes in my mouth. Of course stress but not all stress as it turns out and the more I understand that the easier this gets. Also being tired or too hungry which means I snack a LOT more on heathy stuff because once I am starving then I just break down.
Anyway enough about my weight...
In other news...
Wedding planning is getting into fuller swing. I had a little brunch-ish meeting with my girls on Sunday so I could get everyone on the same page. It was a little stressful. I am trying so hard not to be Bride-Zilla but I have very clear ideas what I want. I want to leave this wedding with the same # of girl friends that I went into it with. I know having little meetings might seem a little crazy but I am ALL about the communtication and the more they get to meet with each othe and with me the less everyone is guessing about when I want.
Well my lunch break is over and I have to get back to my desk.
I am also starting to figure out my triggers. What drives me to the point where I just don't care what goes in my mouth. Of course stress but not all stress as it turns out and the more I understand that the easier this gets. Also being tired or too hungry which means I snack a LOT more on heathy stuff because once I am starving then I just break down.
Anyway enough about my weight...
In other news...
Wedding planning is getting into fuller swing. I had a little brunch-ish meeting with my girls on Sunday so I could get everyone on the same page. It was a little stressful. I am trying so hard not to be Bride-Zilla but I have very clear ideas what I want. I want to leave this wedding with the same # of girl friends that I went into it with. I know having little meetings might seem a little crazy but I am ALL about the communtication and the more they get to meet with each othe and with me the less everyone is guessing about when I want.
Well my lunch break is over and I have to get back to my desk.
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
The absent Meg
Sorry I have not been around much as of late but things have been crazy busy. So far I have lost a grand total of 19lbs at Weight Watchers. I am feeling great and have really started to notice some changes both in my body and in my spirit. I got a membership to a gym and I go 4-5 days a week. I have energy I only ever dreamed of having (except tonight when I am hot and tired) and for the first time in a long time I really believe that this is something I can do.
Not to mention the fact that we have a wedding coming up in 388 days and I have to get my ass in gear! I am having the first official meeting of the maids this weekend and am very excited. I want this to be a FUN process. I also want this to be a calm, relaxed and easy process. Basically I wnat everyone to do what I ask and make my life easy *giggle* but I promise not to be a Bride-zilla.
I am having a hard time finding a pattern for my dress. But I am just going to keep breathing thatis the only thing to do.
So I am sorry I haven't been around much but I will try and put in more of an effort. Now I am off to bed for an early night 'cause the gym just killed me today.
Not to mention the fact that we have a wedding coming up in 388 days and I have to get my ass in gear! I am having the first official meeting of the maids this weekend and am very excited. I want this to be a FUN process. I also want this to be a calm, relaxed and easy process. Basically I wnat everyone to do what I ask and make my life easy *giggle* but I promise not to be a Bride-zilla.
I am having a hard time finding a pattern for my dress. But I am just going to keep breathing thatis the only thing to do.
So I am sorry I haven't been around much but I will try and put in more of an effort. Now I am off to bed for an early night 'cause the gym just killed me today.
Monday, June 05, 2006
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
WOW!!
Well I can't dispute the facts, so far WW is working for me. As of this morning I have lost 12.6 lbs.
I mean holy shit!! I have lost a bag of potatoes! I have no idea from where, I don't really feel any different but I could fall down on the ground and kiss someone's feet with gratitude. I know that it will get harder, I know that there comes a point when you don't lose so much a week, I know that there will come plateau's and I will feel like quitting but for right this moment I am on top of the world. Gil has been so supportive, when I came out from being weighed this morning I cried. They were happy tears but I still bawled like a baby. I was sure last week was going to have beena fluke or a mistake and I was going to be jsut as heavy as that first night, as the night with Shannon when I stepped on the scale in my living room, but I was wrong. I always expect the worse from myself but Gil always see the good. He is such a gift to me. He is heading back to PEI this week and I know with him gone I will be tempted to eat out of boredom but I am not going to let myself. I like the high that I am getting from success and I don't want that to end. YAY ME!
I mean holy shit!! I have lost a bag of potatoes! I have no idea from where, I don't really feel any different but I could fall down on the ground and kiss someone's feet with gratitude. I know that it will get harder, I know that there comes a point when you don't lose so much a week, I know that there will come plateau's and I will feel like quitting but for right this moment I am on top of the world. Gil has been so supportive, when I came out from being weighed this morning I cried. They were happy tears but I still bawled like a baby. I was sure last week was going to have beena fluke or a mistake and I was going to be jsut as heavy as that first night, as the night with Shannon when I stepped on the scale in my living room, but I was wrong. I always expect the worse from myself but Gil always see the good. He is such a gift to me. He is heading back to PEI this week and I know with him gone I will be tempted to eat out of boredom but I am not going to let myself. I like the high that I am getting from success and I don't want that to end. YAY ME!
Monday, May 15, 2006
YAY!!!!!!!!!
I lost 7lbs. my first week on weight watchers!! I am so stoked! I feel so great right now. YAY!
Friday, May 12, 2006
Thursday, May 11, 2006
Monday, May 08, 2006
100 Things about Me - Part 3
51. I have brown eyes.
52. I have recieved more compliments on my eyes then anything else.
53. I have no idea what is so nice about my eyes.
54. My mother and brothers have green eyes.
55. I ALWAYS wanted green eyes.
56. As a child both my Cabage Patch Kids had green eyes.
57. I still own both those dolls.
58. I am a pack rat.
59. I make a terrible blond, I just don't have the colouring for it.
60. I started colouring my hair at 15.
61. I look the best with the colour I was born with.
62. I think that is REALLY telling.
63. I think I may have already talked about my hair.
64. My memory is not what it once was.
65. I can remember being in my crib as a toddler.
52. I have recieved more compliments on my eyes then anything else.
53. I have no idea what is so nice about my eyes.
54. My mother and brothers have green eyes.
55. I ALWAYS wanted green eyes.
56. As a child both my Cabage Patch Kids had green eyes.
57. I still own both those dolls.
58. I am a pack rat.
59. I make a terrible blond, I just don't have the colouring for it.
60. I started colouring my hair at 15.
61. I look the best with the colour I was born with.
62. I think that is REALLY telling.
63. I think I may have already talked about my hair.
64. My memory is not what it once was.
65. I can remember being in my crib as a toddler.
Sunday, May 07, 2006
100 things about me Part 2....
27. I actually like the taste of water.
28. I TRY to drink 2 lites of the H2O a day.
29. I fail more often then I suceed.
30. I had "special" water imported in from the UK.
31. I am in fact 31.
32. I will be 32 when I get married.
33. I can't wait for my ring to get here!
34. As of today we have 14 months until the big day.
35. I am scared that 14 months is not enough time to plan.
36. I am a drama queen.
37. I tend to start projects and not see them through.
38. That is my REAL fear about the wedding.
39. Today I went for an amazing walk.
40. Yesterday I joined Weight Watchers.
41. These are both things I am afraid I won't follow through on.
42. I had another brain freeze at 42.
43. I hate my neighbour hammering at 9 am on the weekends.
44. My mother was 44 when she died of breast cancer.
45. This is one of the leading reasons I NEED to lose weight.
46. I check my email WAY too often.
47. I watch too much tv.
48. TV is like food to me, it numbs.
49. I have too many grey hairs.
50. I am not a go grey gracefully kind of girl, I am just too lazy to colour it.
28. I TRY to drink 2 lites of the H2O a day.
29. I fail more often then I suceed.
30. I had "special" water imported in from the UK.
31. I am in fact 31.
32. I will be 32 when I get married.
33. I can't wait for my ring to get here!
34. As of today we have 14 months until the big day.
35. I am scared that 14 months is not enough time to plan.
36. I am a drama queen.
37. I tend to start projects and not see them through.
38. That is my REAL fear about the wedding.
39. Today I went for an amazing walk.
40. Yesterday I joined Weight Watchers.
41. These are both things I am afraid I won't follow through on.
42. I had another brain freeze at 42.
43. I hate my neighbour hammering at 9 am on the weekends.
44. My mother was 44 when she died of breast cancer.
45. This is one of the leading reasons I NEED to lose weight.
46. I check my email WAY too often.
47. I watch too much tv.
48. TV is like food to me, it numbs.
49. I have too many grey hairs.
50. I am not a go grey gracefully kind of girl, I am just too lazy to colour it.
Thursday, May 04, 2006
100 Things about Me
1. I stole this idea from Jerilyn who is WAY more creative then me.
2. I am currently eating my lunch at work.
3. I actually really like my job even though it is rather boring.
4. There are peas and carrots in my rice.
5. The peas and carrots are making me cry because they remind me of Shannon. And I am sad because this is her last day here.
6. I am worried I will never see my best friend again.
7. I am prone to worry about things with no basis in reality.
8. I have already run out of things to say about myself.
9. I just snuck another look at Jerilyn's to see what she talked about.
10. I have the hiccups
11. I have recently been trying to drink 2 liters of water a day
12. Today I am having a hard time with that.
13. What I really want to drink right now is a glass of red wine.
14. My favorite wine at the moment is the Sheraz by Yellow Tail.
15. I do not really like white wine.
16.I am very over weight.
17. I plan on starting Weight Watchers next week.
18. Secretly I don't believe I have the will power to lose weight.
19. I want to lose the weight soI can be a beautiful bride.
20. I recently became engaged.
21. I proposed!
22. I want and am getting a ring even though I popped the question
23. My hiccups are gone.
24. I don't plan on wearing a white dress
25. Secretly I do care about what people think about me not wearing a white dress.
26. My lunch break is over.
2. I am currently eating my lunch at work.
3. I actually really like my job even though it is rather boring.
4. There are peas and carrots in my rice.
5. The peas and carrots are making me cry because they remind me of Shannon. And I am sad because this is her last day here.
6. I am worried I will never see my best friend again.
7. I am prone to worry about things with no basis in reality.
8. I have already run out of things to say about myself.
9. I just snuck another look at Jerilyn's to see what she talked about.
10. I have the hiccups
11. I have recently been trying to drink 2 liters of water a day
12. Today I am having a hard time with that.
13. What I really want to drink right now is a glass of red wine.
14. My favorite wine at the moment is the Sheraz by Yellow Tail.
15. I do not really like white wine.
16.I am very over weight.
17. I plan on starting Weight Watchers next week.
18. Secretly I don't believe I have the will power to lose weight.
19. I want to lose the weight soI can be a beautiful bride.
20. I recently became engaged.
21. I proposed!
22. I want and am getting a ring even though I popped the question
23. My hiccups are gone.
24. I don't plan on wearing a white dress
25. Secretly I do care about what people think about me not wearing a white dress.
26. My lunch break is over.
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
NEWS FLASH!!
Oh my god I am FAT! I am not chubby, I am not pleasently plump. I am a freaking heffer!
Last night Shannon and I were talking about ways we could get healthier and then it turned into how much do we weigh so I went up and took the bathroom scale out of its secret hiding place and HOLY SHIT I AM FAT. I have certainly blown passed my hightest weight. And so with that in mind I dived face first into a bucket of KFC chicken. And then I cried for the rest of the night. And now here I am. and I am saying I can't do this any more. I can't live like this. Seriously can't live, I am going to start (?) to have seriouse health problems soon if I don't shed some of this weight. I hate the way I look and I hate the way I feel and I don't want to hate myself.
Step # 1 is weight watchers. I don't care how much money it is, my body it worth it. I can't do this on my own, I know I can't so it is time to get real about getting help.
Step # 2 will be to find some form of exercise I don't hate. Ahhh I have to do it but it will not be easy. I AM LAZY!
Anyway I am starting to cry again and that is just not cool at work so i am going to go find a WW recipe for dinner tonight. I will talk about this more later. BEWARE
Last night Shannon and I were talking about ways we could get healthier and then it turned into how much do we weigh so I went up and took the bathroom scale out of its secret hiding place and HOLY SHIT I AM FAT. I have certainly blown passed my hightest weight. And so with that in mind I dived face first into a bucket of KFC chicken. And then I cried for the rest of the night. And now here I am. and I am saying I can't do this any more. I can't live like this. Seriously can't live, I am going to start (?) to have seriouse health problems soon if I don't shed some of this weight. I hate the way I look and I hate the way I feel and I don't want to hate myself.
Step # 1 is weight watchers. I don't care how much money it is, my body it worth it. I can't do this on my own, I know I can't so it is time to get real about getting help.
Step # 2 will be to find some form of exercise I don't hate. Ahhh I have to do it but it will not be easy. I AM LAZY!
Anyway I am starting to cry again and that is just not cool at work so i am going to go find a WW recipe for dinner tonight. I will talk about this more later. BEWARE
Sunday, April 30, 2006
The Quiet House
Shannon, Damon and Olivia are visiting friends in Truro this weekend and the house is SO quiet. Actually it is too quiet. I miss them. It makes me remember they are going to be gone in 5 days and that makes me SO unhappy. Itis hard to share your living space with people for a long time but I LOVE having The Foxes here. I love the noise of Olivia and the banter from Damon and most of all I love having Shannon SO close. I am afraid that when she goes back to Australia I won't see her nay more. I don't know if I will ever get down there. I don't know if she will ever come back to visit. It is a LOT of money to fly half way around the world. Very few people can afford that. Anyway I am freaking out because that is what I do.
A really nice thing happened yesterday that I thought I should tell people about. After we dropped the Foxes off at the mountain we were driving towards home, we hadn't gotten very far when I started to see swiming back dots in front of my eyes and I felt very faint. Thankgoodness I was sitting down. Anyway I decided that what I needed was juice so we stopped at the first store we came to which happened to be this place. But unfortunetly they were closed. However the man who owns it (works there?) saw us try the door and head back to our car and came out to ask us if we needed something. I told him I was just looking for juice and it was no big deal and he invited us to come in and get our drinks anyway even though they had been closed for half an hour. NOW that is sweet! Needless to say we will be going back there any time we are in the area.
A really nice thing happened yesterday that I thought I should tell people about. After we dropped the Foxes off at the mountain we were driving towards home, we hadn't gotten very far when I started to see swiming back dots in front of my eyes and I felt very faint. Thankgoodness I was sitting down. Anyway I decided that what I needed was juice so we stopped at the first store we came to which happened to be this place. But unfortunetly they were closed. However the man who owns it (works there?) saw us try the door and head back to our car and came out to ask us if we needed something. I told him I was just looking for juice and it was no big deal and he invited us to come in and get our drinks anyway even though they had been closed for half an hour. NOW that is sweet! Needless to say we will be going back there any time we are in the area.
Monday, April 24, 2006
Long Couple of Days
Well the weekend is over, and as expected it was very hard. The is a helplessness that grief brings because You CAN NOT make a person feel better about losing a loved one, especailly a parent. You have to just let them be in pain and try and anticipate what they might want/need you to do. I have known Shannon 16 years and I think I have gotten pretty good at that part but it is not any easier watching her suffer. Her pain is so open and raw it is palpable and I want to make her better but I can't.
Today I am in a down mood myself despite a pretty good sleep last night (Yay Olivia slept through the night!!) but the weather and mood in the office are making me draggy. And for no good reason I am exhausted. Gil is leaving to go BACK to PEI tomorrow and I am not at all looking forward to that. As much as I love having the bed to myself once and a while I miss him wickedly while he is gone. And lately things have been so amazing for us. I feel everyday more connected to him. He has been a ROCK in our home taking care of everyones needs and me most of all. And watching him with Missy O makes me long even more for children, that man is going to be the BEST daddy.
Well I had better get back to work, I am actually falling asleep here at the computer and that is NOT cool. I have no idea why I am so tired today after getting a decent amount of sleep last night but my eyes and limbs feel so heavy it is crazy!
Today I am in a down mood myself despite a pretty good sleep last night (Yay Olivia slept through the night!!) but the weather and mood in the office are making me draggy. And for no good reason I am exhausted. Gil is leaving to go BACK to PEI tomorrow and I am not at all looking forward to that. As much as I love having the bed to myself once and a while I miss him wickedly while he is gone. And lately things have been so amazing for us. I feel everyday more connected to him. He has been a ROCK in our home taking care of everyones needs and me most of all. And watching him with Missy O makes me long even more for children, that man is going to be the BEST daddy.
Well I had better get back to work, I am actually falling asleep here at the computer and that is NOT cool. I have no idea why I am so tired today after getting a decent amount of sleep last night but my eyes and limbs feel so heavy it is crazy!
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