Because people keep asking me...

Here is a little information about my new gig. The job title is Cash Balancing Clerk. I will be responsible for the daily balancing of cash, credit/debit transactions, lottery tickets, bus tickets and stamps as well as preparing bank deposits, and reporting overages and shortages for all the retail location in the hospitals. I will also order and maintain inventory (lottery tickets, stamps, and bus tickets). A few days a week I will be opening a store before the cashiers arrive. I will also be receiving inventory, making change for the cashiers, etc. As well I will assist the cashiers with any concerns or issues they may have.

It is a Monday to Friday gig, however I will start much earlier in the day then I am now. 7am!! I have been getting my body ready for this by getting up at 6am every morning. Next week I roll it back to 5:30. I will need to be on the bus at 6:15 so that will be the biggest adjustment. I will really get a lot of use out of the iPod that my brother gave me I can tell you that.

I am really excited. I am nervous but I know I can do this and do it well.

Oddly enough

Today I am full of fear and doubt. Did I make the make choice? Will I make new "work friends"?
But I do have wicked PMS so at least I know where it is coming from.

Yay!!!!!

I got the job!!!! I am feeling so good right now and I haven't even had a glass of wine! This was a real confidence boost for me. I really wasn't sure after the interview how it went but they liked me. There is something so gratifying about that. I gave my boss my two weeks notice today. She said they are sad to see me go which also makes me feel good. I grew up a lot in that job and I owe them gratitude for giving me a place to learn and grow and recognize that it was time for me to fly. I know that the change over will be weird and at first I may question the wisdom of my decision but I KNOW it is for the best. YAY!

Big Day Tomorrow!

So tomorrow is my job interview with Capital Health. I am really excited and a bit nervous. My boss gave me some good advice with getting through the interview and lots of encouragment. How cool s that? I think I am more prepared for this interview then anyone in the past, which is of course why I am nervous. I am worried my confidance is tempting fate. I can only do my best right?! Tonight I am going to bed at a decent hour. I am going to get some rest and in the morning I will get up and have some breakfast and then let the chips fall where they may.  It is a little like the wedding that way. There comes a point where you just have to go with it and it is no longer under your control. That part is the hardest for me. I really believe I can do this. I really do.

I love....

The view from my living room window....

I love...

Today my babies are being extra cute...

I love them

Wowie Zowie...

So the winds of change are blowing here and I am both excited and shit scared. I talked to my boss today and told her that I would likely be giving her my two weeks in the next few days. I was totally honest about why I was planning on leaving. That I was unhappy in the job, that the perks were no longer enough to balance out the drawbacks. I told her is was a difficult decision but I had to do what was best for me. And I have to say she was very cool about it.
Of course now I have to make sure I get this other job otherwise I will look like a total ass. But the ball is rolling now. And the only think I know for sure is that I need out of Maxwell and out of sales. I just don't have the stomach for it anymore.

What feels good...

There is a cat sleeping on my feet, she is warm and heavy and comfy. It feels like love.

How I had the best Valentines Day of my life.

I have been very lucky to have had several very lovely Valentines Days in my life. A few very romantic. A few a little strange. And some memorable for less pleasant reasons. I have had flowers from a secret admirer and a limo drive with champagne. But nothing can top the day that Gil and I had yesterday. Here is what happened. We got up, we ran some errands. we tidied the house. I tried to have a nap. He played his computer game. We made dinner and got ready to have some friends over to play board games. We snarked at each other. We watched an episode of Lost and then an episode of Hero's. Friends arrived and we played the most complicated board game of all time. We stayed up too late talking because all the snack foods and caffeine made me feel sick and awake. We fell asleep happy. Yup that's it. No flowers. No cards. No gifts. No fancy dinner at a fancy restaurant. No overture because the calendar told us to. Nope we decided that we love each other enough the other 364 days a year we didn't need to prove it to ourselves or anyone else with the stress with both feel over such events. So we did it our way and I am pleased to report that this February the 14th was a tremendous day. Yay us. Ain't love grand?

My dream

I had the most amazing dream last night. I mean really it was like nothing I have ever felt from a dream before. I know I might sound a bit nutty saying this but I am willing to be mocked when I tell you that it felt more like a prophecy or prediction. I am telling you this because the dream rocked me to my very core. I feel like something changed while I was sleeping. Okay here it was. I was holding our daughter. She was 2 or 3 years old but she was new to us. She was solid against my body. She was so beautiful. She had chin length dark brown hair and huge beautiful brown eyes. The social worker had told us we would have a tough time with her. She was still in diapers and she would not speak although they were sure that she could. She and I were walking through a crowd towards a beach/park where there was a group of friends waiting for us. She was clinging to me and I knew that she trusted me to keep her safe, I could feel it physically. I knew it as sure as I have ever known anything. She was wearing pink footie PJ's (which I admit is an odd choice for a picnic in the park/beach) and she had a pink barrette or bow in the front of her hair. I was carrying her and I was so happy. I was pointing to our friends and naming them for her "There is Auntie Aimee and Uncle John." She soaks that in. "There is Uncle Mike" she soaks that in. And then I point to Gil and ask "Who's that?" and her face split into a wide smile and she and she exclaims "Daddy!" and I was felt happieness I never even dreamed of. Then I woke up. But I am telling you there is something to that dream. I just know it.

Weepy day...

Of the my many things that made me cry today, this was one of them.

okay I am really excited about the prospect of change. At the moment it is no more then a fantasy but this week I am going to try and fix that. I heard about a job locally that is basically my dream job. I don't even know if they are in a hiring cycle but I am going to convince them that they need me. I am so jazzed up. I have a gut feeling about this. I really do.