Food! A Vegas retrospective.

Do you know what we did the most in Vegas? Other then freak out over the heat? We ate. Oh man did we eat. And I love to take pictures of food. In fact I would give up my money counting career in a heart beat if I could take pictures of food and get paid for it....

Above is the Cobb salad I had for lunch at the Bellagio the first day we were there. It was a long hot walk but worth every second of it.

The breakfast buffet at Paris. I seriously could have stayed all day. I mean really, sausages with sweet potato in them? Are you trying to kill me with pleasure?

Lunch at The Rainforest Cafe. Homemade potato chips... *drool* It was loud and I was stressed out having been lost for some time in the Excelsior but this sandwich made it all worth while.

BEST STEAK EVER!
Say no more.
YUM.
(The Wynn)


One of the few times we had room for dessert.
Homemade S'mores at the Wynn.
OMFG!

My very first taste of grits. So strange, so yummy.

Baby Octopi.
'nuff said.

Dinner at Tao.
Sincerely one of the BEST dining experiences of my life.

Tomorrow...

Gil has a hot date with the social worker tomorrow morning. I am feeling pretty calm. The house is pretty clean and I am tired about stressing out so I have decided not to any more. There you go. We are getting some supplies from friends who have out grown their baby stuff to have on hand for when we start respite (god let it be soon!) I just want to see that we are ready for this. Yeah I guess I am still stressing. But have you met me? Stress is my thing. :)

Monday.

okay... Monday sucked. I mean really... SUCKED. I didn't sleep well I was tired all day even after two cups of tea. The new flake a work who I said had no longevity has quit, colour me shocked!
Anyway it looks like it is going to be a long week. Maybe I will be to busy and too tired to worry about the home study. Also went to see family doctor tonight my blood pressure was 130/85 which is pretty much perfect so basically we are saying that the scary numbers were an anomaly or the doc heard wrong. Either way I am a happy chicken!

Going to bed now. pray Tuesday is a better day.

Where the hell does the weekend go? I blinked and it is gone. I can't wait until the end of November/ first of December when we have a whole week off with nothing to do but sit in front of a fire place and read. I know it sounds sissy but I can't remember the last time I felt like my batteries were fully charged. Once we are parents I know there won't be much time for battery charging and I know that will take its toll but I am ready to make that sacrifice. Right now should be a time for us, for getting ready and for strengthening our bonds. Relationships change once you have children so let us for now enjoy being in the present with each other. Yeah that sounds good.

Another Saturday morning musing,

Well I/we had a very long week and I am pleased to report that it is over and for at least today we can settle back down into some kind of relaxation mode. Gil as it turned out had to go to Toronto this week, OF COURSE. I mean it is only logical right? We finally get a date for our home study and work has to whisk him away. But he put his foot down and said he needed to be here on Thursday and so he was. I love my man.
So of course Thursday came and as did the social worker. It went very well. It was just a first meeting, you know but faces to names, fill out more paper work, but we did talk a lot (did I talk too much??!!), she looked at pictures of our wedding which of course I love to show off. We talked for about an hour, it was good. Next on the docket Gil starts his individual sessions with her. This of course has my inner control freak on pins and needles but I am going to be totally cool. The time has come to deal with the fact that I can not control every situation.
Look at me learning and growing.
I know logically I can't control everything. I mean the weather seems well out of my grasp, but it is hard for me and I know that the social worker is going to see that about me. It is one of the things I worry about the most. You know that and the fact that my personal history sounds like a Danielle Steel novel only smuttier and more drug addled.
Okay off to slack. Have a great day!

The day before.

Oh my brain! I am exploding with thoughts and worries and STUFF. I wish my hubby was home. I know I would still be going mental however at least I would have lots of hugs and reassurances. I hate that he is flying today. I mean I always hate it when he flies but I am more nervous today. It feels like there is so much at stake. I am watching some West Wing because that always chills be out, yeah tv is a bit like a drug but tonight I think it is the lesser of two evils. Actually I don't know what the other evil might be since I don't drink, smoke do drugs or ... I dunno other vices. Not true, food is my vice. I already ate some crappy dinner and now my guts feel icky. Weird, since cutting out so much crappy food now when I DO eat it it really upsets my delicate system. I had Kraft dinner and I am just feel awful. I know that part of it is my nerves but I honestly think that the bulk of it is that there is no nutritional value to KD, that I have had no good veggies today and that I ate chicken twice. Now that I hardly eat meat when I do I really feel it.
Anyway my brain is all over the place but the house is looking pretty good, certainly good enough. Tomorrow is going to happen no matter what I do at this point. It is a little bit like the night before a big exam, at a certain point studying more is not going to change a thing.
I have to work early so I guess I am just going to go to bed with an extra prayer in my heart.

Thoughts on Las Vegas - Part Two

I am trying to not focus too much on the home study (2 DAYS!!) So I am going back to reflecting on Vegas.
Las Vegas is a truly incredible and weird place. It was a lot like what I imagine Wonderland would be like for grown ups. I doubt highly that there is such a thing as a "normal" Las Vegas experience. I think it all depends on which little bottle you drink from or which cookie you bite. Every where I turned there were amazing, strange monuments and lights and sculptures. There were lights and fountains and even Elvis! I felt like I had crossed into some alternate reality dimension where things like work and responsibility were moot. Hours of the day ceased to have any true meaning. Food, drink and frivolity were pretty much a 24 hours free for all. Part of me wishes I had been able to stay out late and party with the stars, but as I mentioned I couldn't get off Atlantic time. I am betting that Vegas gets even wilder and weirder in the late night hours.
Okay. I know that isn't a big reflection but honestly I can't get my brain off the home study so I am going to scrub the toilet for the 15th time.

Thoughts on Las Vegas - Part One

As you may know Gil and I had a unique experience this summer which came in the form of a mostly free trip to Las Vegas Nevada. It was one of the weirdest experiences of my life and at the same time it was totally amazing. I have never in my life been any place warmer then summer in Nova Scotia. Well, that is not exactly true, I did spend some very hot summers in Ontario as a child but you get the picture, I have never been anywhere hot.
There was nothing on earth that could prepare me for the heat that we encountered in the desert of Nevada. Sure there is air conditioning all over the place but there was no avoiding being outside altogether. The coolest temperatures I saw while we were there were when I woke up each day at 4am (my awful inability to get off Atlantic time). At 4am most days it was roughly 25 degrees celsius. Yup before the sun rose it was was already a hot summer Halifax day.
The first day we were there we decided to walk to the Bellagio for lunch, it was about mid day and it was probably 45 degrees outside. We had no idea what we were in for. The Strip is not that long really but in that heat it felt like forever, by the time we got to our destination we were both hot, nauseous and cranky. It was a real learning experience. After that we never left the hotel without water, we always had hats and we learned pretty fast the best ways to get around without having to go outside. We also learned that the best thing you can do for yourself is to take some time to relax during the hottest parts of the day. Lots of people made use of the the many pools that litter the strip, I did go up to our pool but I could not bring myself to go in. The pool was the one place where the Vegas was just like the Vegas of TV. It was a spawning ground for incredibly beautiful people, a land of boob jobs and bikinis. I never felt so un in my whole life. However we did have a HUGE bath tub so when we needed to cool down we would go back fill the enormous tub with cool water and just chill out (pardon the pun) for half an hour or so. It sincerely made me feel like a new person.
People keep asking me how Vegas was and my first response is always about the heat. It made a serious impression on me. Next time I will talk about something else I promise.

Full of it...

Yeah I am full of it at the moment...creative, nervous energy that is. The cats had me up at 7:30 demanding food. I guess a child won't be much different then that. I don't mind being up so early. I have definitely found in the last year or so that I am increasingly one of those morning people. Specifically I really enjoy the days when Gil and I get up extra early and go to the gym before work. It is so much easier then trying to muster the energy in the evening. The is an added bonus here, at 7am the only people in the gym are senior citizens so I don't feel quite to compelled to compare myself or feel judged. I suppose we may have to change our routine when we finally have a child but I trust that we will eventually find equilibrium.
I am fighting the urge to clean to the extent that I feel I should, I don't want to make our house look or feel like a show home. I want to look like what it is, a home where real people live but at the same time I am worried about the strangest things. I have a bottle of wine on the counter, it is unopened. It has been there since July when Shannon was home. I have always wanted to live in a home with a wine rack, good cheese and books, it is part of my pretension, but now I feel the need to hide my wine away. I want to be myself and I want to be exactly what they want. I guess I really won't know until the social worker is here in our home. I feel so on display and I know it is a part of what we signed up for but I can't help but resent it a tiny bit. I mean if I got pregnant no one would becoming into our home to judge if we were fit to bring the child home, not unless we had already had dealings with child welfare. Anyway, mostly I am excited because I think we are getting closer. I hope fervently the the social worker sees Gil and I for the unique, wonderful, quirky couple that we are and helps us to find the child that is out there waiting for us. Some days it is hard for me to imagine there being more then just he and I because it has been just the two of us for almost 8 years, but I feel in my heart of hearts that we are meant to be a bigger family. I look at Gil and I can see that he is meant to be a father. And with all my strangeness, with all my struggles and all my experience I have no doubt that I want to be a mother, that I can pass on the amazing love my mother gave to me those first 9 years. She saved my life with that love, I don't think I would have survived all that came later if I hadn't had her. I want the chance to give that back into the universe.
Okay I am going clean just a little more... nothing obsessive or anything I swear.

Weird things that happen in my house...

Okay, I have a great many friends. They are all unique and special to me. They are a veritable rainbow of weird and wonderful however some of them are weirder then others. For example this weekend we played host to our friend T. who is a bonafide hippy. I am very fond of T. and we have been friends for a LONG time. As a bonus he also clicked perfectly with my darling husband so we are all amused when T. comes for a visit. Along with food that is entirely to healthy, as we always insist that T. cooks, we also have the most bizarre conversations like the one that follows...

Me:places empty pop bottle in green bin
T : "oh I was saving that in case I need to poop."
Me: " Oh it was empty."
T: "yeah, I was saving it because I don't use toilet paper."
M: stunned silence...
M again: "OH!"

Yup weird and only in my house. I love my friends and I love my life.

News!

Houston we have a date for our home study!! Okay so that doesn't roll off the tongue so easy but it is true. We have a new social worker and we are going to meet her next Thursday at 3:30 here in our home and we are going to start. I am terribly nervous because I don't get to be in control in this situation but more then nervous I am just plain excited. I know that given the chance Gil and I will be great parents, especially as a team. We really are a good team. I love him so much. I love that he makes me a better person. I am feeling very gushy about him today but I won't make you all gag by running on and on about the depth and breadth of my love.
Of course there is a huge part of me that wants to clean this house until every surface gleams but there is a part of me that just wants her to see us for who we really are, and let's face it. Neat freaks we are not. Our house is nice, it is comfortable, it is not usually "dirty" but it is often untidy. I don't think that would make us better or worse parents. I try to follow the fly lady and one of these days I might even get get good at it but in the mean time I don't think many people have gone to their grave wishing that their house had been cleaner. Unless of course their dirty house killed them, that would be awful.
Well I am off to run errands because I am officially turned into my mother, I am dropping winter coats off to be dry cleaned. Have mercy on me.

Where to start?

It is not that I have had nothing to write about, it’s that I am lazy. I have sat down to write every evening but I get distracted by the evil that is the internet. My current obsession, vegetarian recipes! Sounds a little lame but hey that is me. Today I walk out of the ladies washroom at work, into a busy foyer, with my skirt tucked into my panties. My life IS a sitcom. I suppose it could be worse, it could be a daytime soap!

There has been so much going on I don't even know where to start. Adoption, the switch to flexetarian, joining the gym. Our trip to Las Vegas, my insane cats, my insane job. My life is so interesting I am just overwhelmed by it. I suppose there could be worse things. ;)

Family

Well this has been a very strange and busy couple of weeks. Our home has become a place where we come to drop off dirty laundry and re-pack before hitting the road. The pace has been frantic. I think this may have been the busiest summer of my life. I can feel fall creeping in and I am so excited to greet it at a more leisurely pace. I have some more stuff I want to say about things that have gone on over the summer but it is late and I am more then ready to sleep in my own bed. Tomorrow I promise!

Words Fail Me

I had a seriously rough day at work. Sometimes working at a hospital can be very hard. I came home to cry but looked at this picture I took at the family reunion and laughed instead. I hope this makes you crack a smile.

A little "splash" of colour.

I love this picture. I took it "down the shore" this July while we were visiting Cap Pele. I scooped the seaweed out of the surf because the colour was so amazing. The texture was pretty amazing too but that is pretty hard to convey in a photo. There is something about this lime ricky green always makes me feel energized and zesty. Hmmm zesty, what a weird adjective. But nonetheless that is how I feel. I would like to go right now and dip my toes in the cool Northumberland waters where this lovely piece of seaweed originated.

Saturday morning musing.

Looking at the weather forecast for Las Vegas this coming week, all high 30's low 40's which makes it even more absurd that this morning it was so cold here that the heat in the house automatically came on. It hasn't come on since March that I am aware of. I heard the familiar melody of the pipes tinkling and I thought that I was dreaming... Then they got louder. Environment Canada says it is currents 13 degrees Celsius outside. This is madness, I should be planing where to cool down with a swim not looking for my slippers... come to think of it I think I might go grab a sweater too...

okay, I am all kitted up. Slippers, hoodie, tea. It certainly would be a lovely fall day if it weren't August. Actually I might as well confess it now, I love this weather. The sky is blue, the air is crisp. If I could have this weather 10 months of the year I would be thrilled.
Plans continue to chug along for Vegas. I think it is actually easier when you doing something in a short time like this. Of course I would have liked to have more time to save some money but lets face it, I am not good with anticipation. When I have too long to think about things I stress out. Two weeks seems to be the perfect amount of time. It was extra good this past week because it gave me something to fixate on while Gil was out of town...again. Although the bad thing is that I have been spending money. This is turning into an expensive summer for the both of us. I have to hit Gil up for some cash again today. I swear one of these days I am going to get better with money. Likely when I am dead. Unless I win really big in Vegas, which is not totally 100% out of the realm of possibility. I mean, weirder thing HAVE happened. If that DOES happen then I am going to buy myself a pair of Jimmy Choo's and be very smart with the rest of my money. LOL, Jimmy Choo's. What would I do with a thousand dollar pair of shoes? I would be too scared to wear them out of the house. *sigh* A girl can dream.
Well, my in-laws are coming today, my father-in-law is going to lay me a new kitchen floor so I better start getting this house clean. As it turns out I really am a slob, when Gil is away the whole house goes to pot!
Have a great Saturday.

Rhéal - July 2009

I am deep in my bones tired tonight because I was up at 4am with Gil who was heading back out on the road. Believe it or not it gets easier with each trip away. I suppose that our impending trip to Las Vegas makes me more agreeable. Anyway I am off to have my blessed 8 hour coma but I wanted to share this picture before I start to drool on my pillow (or Gil's pillow as the case may be). This is my father in law. Okay so it is his toes but it tells you everything you need to know about the man and I why I love him so much. Sturdy, solid, fun, adventurous. This is by no stretch one of my best pictures but it elicits such strong feelings in me I just had to share.
Nighty night

Tulips, Spring 2009

I love tulips so much. There is something so magical about them. These ones were in the public gardens this spring. I had never seen anything like them with their double petals. They are beautiful!

My awesome news!

Okay I didn't take this picture, I confess. However in 12 days I will be able to take something like it for myself!! On Friday Gil was finally home from his extended trip to the States. Okay, it was only 4 days, but I swear it felt like an eternity. I was having a seriously great day anyway have good morning snuggles AND a drive to work. I knew I was going to see friends I have been missing that evening.We were heading into a long weekend. I was pretty as happy as I thought I could get. Then I got a call from Gil at work. He says, can you talk to my boss about getting a few days off?? He says his boss if feeling bad about all the time we are missing each other, his boss feels bad because he is sending him away again, this time to Las Vegas for a trade show. His boss says if I am free to go they will send me with him. On their dime! Oh yes you heard me correctly. I am going to Vegas for 5 days for FREE! I let him know I have to talk to my boss. The schedule has been pretty tricky lately, I don't want to leave her in a pinch. If she says she needs me, I can't go. So I page her... oh god, what if she says no? She calls me back, I explain the situation from her. Of course she says yes. She is s cool about it, how could she stand between me and a free trip tp Vegas. A FREE TRIP TO VEGAS! I call Gil back. I am elated, I can't breath. Within the hour plans are arranged to get me an expedited passport. The flight is booked. The hotel (Trump International!) is booked. I am on top of the world!! My hubby and I are going to Vegas together. We have never flown anywhere together. I know he is going to have to work some but who cares!? We are going to VEGAS!!

By Candle Light, July 2009

I know that it is a little "Amnesty International" but I like it. I feel a pervasive sense of calm when I look at it. Again I am playing with the macro but here I have started playing with some other settings like apertures and colour. The colour of this candle is so welcoming and warm just like where we were that night, Mo and Kevin's place. Although it was taken in the summer it feels like autumn to me.

Me and my shadow...

Here is a great example of one problem I encounter over and over again, I just can't get away from it, my shadow.
Craig told me early on to position myself so that I am not casting a shadow across my subject but time after time I ruin a great shot the same way.

Paw Paw March 2009

Oh my heart sings when I see this. I love this little paw. I love it's warm, dry Dorito smell. I love the way it prods at me when I am trying to sleep. I have such a warm feeling in my heart when I look at this picture. It makes me want to grab a kitty and snuggle. I think I will do that right now.

Boats August 2007

There is water in my blood and when I make a picture like this it is hard for my to deny. I don't know the first thing about sailing but boats and water are some of my favorite subjects. When I look at this picture I feel like the moment is bursting with possible adventure. This is just the calm before, this is the delicious anticipation. This means business.

Red Wine - October 2006

This was the beginning of my playing with macro phase, which of course I have not get out grown. The wine we are drinking is left over from our wedding as it is only a few weeks later. When I look at this picture I feel warm and nostalgic. It is certainly not my best shot ever but it was when I started to feel like I could really make a picture. Also it makes me crave Sunday afternoon, good cheese and red wine.

Public Gardens May 2009

Way back in May we had a stretch of fine weather. It was awesome. One day after work I wandered over to the Public Gardens with my trusting little Canon PowerShot A560 and started snap some pictures. There were lots of flowers, I love flowers. But on my way out of the gate I snapped this one and it turned out to be my favorite of the day I think. I love the colours, they make me feel energized. What do you think?

Cap Pele July 2008

It is hard for me to explain how I feel when I see this.
Breathless, graceful, proud, certain of my faith and relaxed all at the same time. Until I met Gil, until we began our routine treks to to the Acadian heartland, until I came to this shore I never had a place that truly felt like family, like home. It doesn't matter that half the time I don't understand a lick of what is being said to me. It doesn't matter that I can't trace a drop of my own heritage to these warm Northumberland shores. Here in this easy place with it's easy pace and profound beauty my soul has found a resting place.

I love today

Today was a good day. I have a headache now and the kitchen is a mess but I am still very happy.

Random...

Okay so I planted the herbs. They grew. In fact they are huge. Now what?
I am guessing there is some process to harvesting them. I know I should use them for cooking. Hmmm cooking, there is a good idea; we have been doing so little lately. Let’s face it we are lazy. Because we don’t do prep work, like say taking something out of the freezer to thaw the night before, we end up after work with no plan, a frozen hunk of chicken thighs and too hungry mean peoples. So we end up ordering in or running out and grabbing something. Which in the long run has to cost a lot more money, plus we end up throwing out a load of food every week. AND it is not as good for us. I would really like to change this behaviour. I think it can be done. I think that we both need to learn a little more self discipline, me especially since I often think that Gil is just going along to stop my bitchy hungry whinging. And the truth is I always feel better, happier, and healthier when we are eating at home. AND I actually enjoying being in the kitchen which is something I never thought I would say. I have a ton of recipes book marked on the computer that I am dying to try, really at the end of the day it is just a matter of motivation, why is that part so hard?
Why does living a healthy life seem so much like work to me? I mean it is not like this means I can never have a nice meal out, nor does it mean I can never have a glass of pop or some chips, it just means these things need to be done in moderation. Actually the pop thing is going pretty good. I am pleased on the account. We are both drinking a LOT more water. One of the 18 litre bottles for the cooler is averaging two weeks. That is 9 litres a week between the two of us or roughly 1.3 litres a day each, not counting what we drink out and about. Yay us! Actually back to the herbs for a moment I have read about people who make their own flavoured water by adding herbs to it, I might try that. With the mint, not the chives, ‘cause that just sounds gross.
Okay so what I need is a plan of action that doesn’t make my inner spoiled princess stomp her feet until she takes over. A plan that means we are using the groceries we buy but not waiting until 7:30 to eat when everyone has gotten cranky and mean. This is going to HAVE to include some meal planning. Flying by the seat of your pants is fun but usually where things tend to go awry. It also means I have to set aside some time each evening, half an hour or so where I do meal prep for the next day. LOTS of things can be done in advance. Things can be defrosted, chopped, boiled... you get the picture. Heck I have a great slow cooker, I really should be using that more.
Of course another part of this whole plan need to be having a clean kitchen to work in. A dirty kitchen is a huge deterrent and a convenient excuse for not getting down to business. In order to have a nice clean kitchen I have to stop fluttering and really start FLYing again (www.flylady.net) I was doing good for a long time but as so often happens with me I fell off and could not/would not pick myself up again. I don’t know why. It is such a good system and I am SOOOOOO happy when my house is clean. And I don’t mean pass a white glove test clean, I just mean things put away, not tripping over things, not embarrassed when people come over, not hunting for my underwear at 5:30am clean. And it is so easy when I follow the FLYlady. I know I will never live in a Martha Stewart house, that is just not me, and I probably wouldn’t want to, you would have to walk around on egg shells being careful not to disturb anything, but I would like a little Martha, a lot of FLYlady and a dose of Rachel Ray thrown in there. I think if I can find the right routine I can do this. Nix that if I can find the right routine and not get thrown off at the first bump. Because that is my real problem. I will be chugging along working a routine like a champ but when something disruptive comes along, like a cold or a new job or a house guest... ZAP! Bye bye routine. And then I just ... well I just don’t get back up. Who knows why?! Because god knows I am happier and easier to live with when I am on a routine, a schedule . Bumps come along, I have to learn to roll with them. That goes for my whole darn life. If you asked my loving husband what upsets me the very most he would tell you “the plan changing” then he would probably shudder and weep a lone tear. Because folks, the plan changes ALL THE TIME!!! Which means on a very regular basis I am totally thrown and don’t deal well. And poor Gil is often the focus of my frustration when that happens. It is so unfair to him. I know I am never going to be totally laid back and cool, I am just not made that way. I look at my eldest brother and I know that it is something that I must come by naturally because he hates it when the plan changes too. Of course he deals with it so much better. I need to take lessons from him. Geesh, talk about things I never thought I would say. I should point out at this point that this is also a man whose house is ALWAYS spotless. Always. I mean it. It is kind of sickening. Hey has stopped just shy of covering his furniture with plastic. (can you say OCD?) Yup I wish I could be more like him in lots of ways.
So where do I start? Well today I go back to the baby steps that the FLYlady taught me. That is best place to go back to. Also when the vegetable fairy comes I am going to harangue my awesome husband into making a meal plan with me. I can do this. I just need to take one baby step at a time. Wish me luck!

Geesh who thought wondering what to do with my herbs would lead here? Gotta love my train of thought. Have a great day.

Yay!

Sitting here at 5pm on Friday afternoon, lapping up the sun, enjoying a beer and playing on my new laptop. Seriously, does life get any better than this?? Gilly is going to BBQ us some dinner. I have nothing on the go tonight except maybe putting some laundry away. I am a happy duckling. Actually I have basically nothing going on all weekend. Really this is the kind of weekend I live for. I will garden, I will putter around the house, I will play with my new toy guilt free. No one expects me to be anywhere at any given time. Yup. This is the life.

Shannon is home!

It has been a long busy week in my universe. Preparing for Shannon to arrive, waiting for Shannon to arrive, jumping up and down while Shannon arrived on a very late flight, on a week night. Getting by on 4 hours of sleep and then hosting a party for our new arrived guest. Of course we stayed up way late and imbibed much libation. I was feisty and tipsy. Then today we had a day packed with friends, brunching and shopping. We tried to stay awake tonight to watch a movie but I think Shannon was asleep before the opening credits were done rolling, poor darling, it must be rough to be all disjointed in time. Me, I am over tired of course, up much too late several nights in a row but I am so happy. Today we had brunch at the Celtic. It was me, Gil, Shannon, Aimee and John Boy and I felt total contentment.

Sugar High

Have you ever had so much sugar that you felt drunk? How about had a hangover from it the next day? This is basically where I am at the moment. Minus the spins thank god. But I am certainly feeling like there were foreign invaders in my blood steam last night. We had SO much fun. We hosted a S'mores night. A few weeks ago Aimee and I were making S'mores on the BBQ and we started thinking off all the silly and creative ways we could make S'more other then the traditional method. And thus the idea was born. We invited a bunch of friends and every one brought something to contribute. I have never seen more forms of sugar in one place out side of a candy store in my life. People got really creative and fun. The little kids had a blast and then ran in circles around the yard which was a good thing. Only two ate until they felt ill. The adults also had a ton of fun. Everyone got so creative with this. And the rain held off so we sat outside most of the night. We saw lots of people who we don't get to see nearly often enough including DOUG! who moved home to Hamilton six months ago but I haven't seen in a decade! (it is is very reassuring to know fyi that awesome people don't change in their awesomeness, they just get better)
The whole thing only lasted about six hours but I feel like we have great memories for a life time.
We loved it so much we are thinking about doing it again in August. Too bad I won't be able to eat sugar again until then...urg... the sugar hangover ....
Have a wonderful day every one.

Saturday chill out...

Someone asked me if I have big plans for the weekend and I said no and they said that is too bad. and I said NO WAY! It is awesome. I love that the plans for this weekend are totally minimal. Why are plans on the weekend so darned important? My week is spent running like a wild child from one important task to the next, I pretty much fall into a coma every night at 9:30 because I am exhausted. Why oh why do I need to do that to my weekend? Today I have talked on the phone for darn near two hours with a friend I haven't talked to in ages, drank two cup of tea, caught up on a blog I love to read, cleaned my belly button and been browbeaten into giving my cats gooshy food. Oh and I threw in a load of laundry, but that is not work, that is me totally gaga in love with my new washer and dryer. The laundry was pure hedonistic pleasure, clean laundry was just gravy. Why would I want to change anything about today?

Creep

Well I have been absent too long yet again. And I couldn't keep up the question thing. Raise your hand if you are surprised. Wait, hey you in the back...yeah you with your hand raised! You must not know me very well. I am the Queen. The Queen of not following through. There is so little in my life that I have actually started and finished. I my wake lay dozens of gym memberships, craft projects, health kicks, and a university degree, even a previous blog!
I would like to change this about myself. I would like to be the follow through girl. But I don' think it is in my cards. But I will try because it is the right thing to do.
You know I have been sitting here for more then an hour now I have been completely distracted... I hope you don't mind but I am going to make a cup of tea to ease my sore throat, and then I am going to lay on the sofa and have a nap. I'll be back

Question 11.

If you could be an animal, any animal, what animal would you be and why?

Oh geez, these ones are getting a little tedious! Who created this list?! Oh yeah right I grabbed it off the internet and it was originally intended to help ASL students with their conversational skills. I get what I paid for I guess.
Okay well turtle are my favorite animal but I don't know that I would want to be one. All that cold water and and dirt doesn't appeal to me. Cats however have the life. I mean really, my cats are spoiled rotten. They find a warm spot and then they nap, they eat and they nap, they chase each other for a moment and then nap, they get snuggles and nap. Of yeah, I would be an indoor house cat for sure. With the proviso that I had a good human who took good care of me and cleaned my litter box a lot. Yup, I might trade it all in for that right now. But since I can't I am just going to go chase my tail for a while then have a nap.

Question 10... can you believe I made it to ten?

Okay so at the moment I am living the dream. Out on the deck, in the dark drinking a glass of wine, and my husband has done the dishes. Every day should be as good as today.

If you could be a super-hero, which one would you be?
Okay do you mean an existing Super hero or do I get to create my own? Because I could totally design my own. If I had to pick an existing on I would totally go old school Wonder Woman. She is the shit. I mean really, how could you not want to be Wonder Woman?
If I got to design myself... I would either be "The Green-Wave" and my special ability... turning traffic lights! or... "Magic Kisses" so I could really make boo-boo's better. Is that too boring? Am I boring you? Are you sleeping??

Question 9!

If you could be a plant, what would you choose to be?

Now this is more my style. Of course I love plants so it is easier for me then birds, I am little phobic about birds.
Anyway I am not going to pick anything fancy or crazy. I am more like a Black Eyed Susan. Beautiful, but common and down to earth. Strong and able to thrive just about anywhere.

Is that vane?

Question 8....

If you could be a bird, what would you choose to be?

Hmm I feel like I in a really bad job interview. I didn't know how to answer this so I turned to Mr.Google to see if I could find a bird that spoke to me. And the truth is I couldn't. I just can't see myself as a bird. So I pick Penguin because I don't think they see themselves as birds either.
Okay this was a boring one. sorry.

Question Seven...

If you could ask God any one question, what would it be?
Oh my! One question?! Well I guess that depends. Does this mean God is going to actually ANSWER one question? Because I ask questions all the time. If he/she/it is going to ANSWER the question then I guess I don't have to ask if he/she/it exists do I?! After that I everything seems small. I want to know if there is an after life. I want to know if I will go on in someway. My big fear about death is that I will be alone and it will be dark. Forever. I know it is unreasonable but that is how I feel.
Of course I probably would just totally blank and end up asking God if he/she/it likes stuff. Lame.

Question Six...

If you bumped your car into another car, but nobody saw you do it, would you leave your name and address?

oh dear. what can I tell you. I am so embarrassed to admit that the once I dinged a persons car and left no note or information. I was getting in the passenger side, it was a very windy day, the wind took the door and slammed it in to the car next to us. there was definitely some damage to the paint. I really feel bad about that. In retrospect I would not do the same thing. It is a dirt bag move. Now you know my secret. I hope you don't think that much less of me.

Question Five and more....

Sorry I dropped off the face of the earth. I got busy. You knew it would happen sooner or later. Frankly I was surprised I did it four days in a row. Anywho, lets look at question five.
If one song were to describe your life, what song would it be? Well this really requires some thought on my part. I believe people have sound tracks to their lives. I believe in theme songs. I certainly to believe in the power of music to speak to the human soul. But ONE song to define a whole life? One song keeps popping into my head and I think it is so trite but I examine the words and they just fit. The song is "I Will Survive" by Gloria Gaynor. Like I said it is trite but I can't help but feel the words. "As long as I know how to love I know I'll stay alive"

Question four....

If the whole world were listening, what would you say?

oh yet another easy one. "Be nice to each other!!"

Question three..

If someone's underwear was showing, would you tell them?

Well it seems that today showing ones underwear is part of a fashion statement, not one I agree with or follow but a statement nonetheless. I can't help but thing of great the Simpson's quote "Your epidermis is showing!" I don't think I would point out to many people that there undergarments were disable to the public. My husbands manties certainly. My closest friends, sure with a little good natured mocking. Other wise I am keeping my trap shut .
For what it is worth I do ofter see the dainties of perfect strangers. At the hospital is is totally normal to walk around in all manner of disrobed splendor. It is like walking through the doors gives you a license to leave your modesty at the curbside. In someways I find it very funny, comforting and relaxing. In other ways I don't like seeing strangers asses. What can you do when you live in a zoo? Or shoe? or flu?
Okay I must be getting punchy now. Time to say bye-bye.
See you tomorrow.

Question two..

If a classmate asked you for the answer to a question during an exam while the teacher was not looking, what would you do?

This one is easy. I would ignore the classmate in question. Nothing and no one is worth risking my academic career. End of story. If the asking continued I would ask to be moved. I know that sounds so black and white but in my advancing years my feelings about these things get stronger and clearer.

Question One...

If you had only 24 hours to live, what would you do?

Okay this is a pretty tough one for me because I have such an overwhelming fear of death to begin with. Maybe it would be easier if You knew for sure it was going to happen in 24 hours and there was nothing you could do about it. Anyway,I digress. I would not sleep for 24 hours. I would want to squeeze as much time in as possible. I would want to touch base with all the people who mean the most to me, tell them that I love them. Ask forgiveness from those I feel I need it from. And then I would spend time with my husband. We would kiss and hug and talk about everything. We would have a wonderful meal and take a long walk holding hands. I would ask him to have a shower with me and wash my hair. I would put on something clean and comfortable and then I would ask him to hold me until the end.

Now I am crying. Great thought exercise. Now I have to go kiss my husband.

A question a day ....

Because my blog has been a bit boring lately here is a little thought exercise for myself.

1.If you had only 24 hours to live, what would you do?
2.If a classmate asked you for the answer to a question during an exam while the teacher was not looking, what would you do?
3.If someone's underwear was showing, would you tell them?
4. If the whole world were listening, what would you say?
5. If one song were to describe your life, what song would it be?
6. If you bumped your car into another car, but nobody saw you do it, would you leave your name and address?
7. If you could ask God any one question, what would it be?
8. If you could be a bird, what would you choose to be?
9. If you could be a plant, what would you choose to be?
10. If you could be a super-hero, which one would you be?
11. If you could be an animal, any animal, what animal would you be and why?

14. If you could be another man or woman for a day, who would you choose?
15. If you could be another person for a day, who would you be?
16. If you could be invisible for a day what would you do and why?
17. If you could change one thing about your spouse or significant other, what would it be?
18. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
19 If you could change one thing in the world, what would it be?
20. If you could choose how you were going to die, what would you choose your death to be?
21. If you could choose to live on a different planet, which one would you choose?
22. If you could commit any crime and get away with it, what would you do?
23. If you could date a celebrity, who would you choose?
24. If you could have only one food for the rest of your life (assuming that this strange situation would not affect your health), which food would you choose?
25. If you could hear what someone is thinking for a day, who would you choose?
26. If you could live anywhere, where would you live?
27. If you could meet any famous person, dead or alive, who would it be and why?
28. If you could speak any other language (besides English) which language would you like to speak?
29. If you could spend a day with any celebrity, who would it be and what questions would you ask that person?
30. If you could take a vacation anywhere in the world for any length of time, where would you go?
31.If you could travel back in time, where would you go?
32. If you didn't have enough money to get the bus home what would you do?
33. If you discovered a new island, what would you name it and why?
34. If you got arrested for murder, whom would you call with your telephone call from prison? And why?
35. If you had an accident and you had to be at home to recover for a long time, what would you do to relieve the boredom?
36. What would you do if you were at home at night, alone, and you heard a noise in your flat/house that seemed to be footsteps? Would you stay calm or would you panic?
37. What would you do if you found the wallet of your next-door neighbor who you hated?
38. If you could have any car you wanted, which car would you choose? Would it be practical or flashy?
39.If your car broke down on the motorway, what would you do? Would you try to fix it yourself?
40. If you could solve the problem of hunger in the third world or repair the ozone, which would you do?
41.If you could stop a bad habit that you have, what would you stop?
42. If you could go back to any moment in history, where would you go?
43. If you could be famous (a household name), what would you like to be famous for?
44. If you were on holiday and you lost your passport, would you know what to do?
45. If you were offered a job in another part of the country, would you be willing to take the job, assuming that the pay is very good?
46. If your partner were offered a job in another part of the country, which was well paid, would you be willing to change places?
47. If you were in the bank and somebody started to hold up the bank, what would you do? How would you react?If you had one wish, what would you wish for?
48. If you could only listen to one song for the rest of your life, which song would you choose?
49. If only one book existed, which book would you like it to be?
50. If you could do any job, what would you like to do?
51. If you could move anywhere, where would you like to live?
52. If you found a suitcase full of $1,000,000, what would you do?
53. If you found a wallet with £1,000 in it, what would you do?
54. If you had 25-hour days (while everyone else continued to have 24-hour days), what would you do with the extra time?
55.If you had one wish, what would it be?
56. If you had the opportunity to be different, what would you change?
57. If you had time machine, where would you go and why?
58. If you had to choose between a wonderful romantic relationship that would end after only a year, or a so-so relationship that would last your entire life, which one would you choose?
59. If you had to choose between love and no money or money and no love for the rest of your life, which would you choose?
60. If you had to choose, would you give up your sight or your hearing?
61. If you received lottery tickets as a gift at the office party, and you won $30,000.00, would you share the winnings with the person that gave you the gift?
62. If you saw a robbery, would you report it?
63. If you saw your zipper was down and people had noticed, what would you do?
64. If you speak two languages and your spouse (husband or wife) speaks only one, will you raise your children to be bilingual?
65. If you were a candy, what candy would you be?
66. If you were a monster, what monster would you be?
67. If you were a toy, what toy would you be?
68. If you were abducted by aliens, would you tell anybody? Why or why not?
69. If you were American/Chinese/Mexican, how would your life be different?
70. If you were asked to choose which time you would like to live in, which century would you choose?
71. If you were asked to speak to a graduating class, what would you say?
72. If you were given a chance to go to the moon, would you go? Why or why not?
73. If you were given a choice between being given great wisdom or great wealth, which would you choose?
74. If you were given an opportunity to be born again, in which country would you like to be born?
75. If you were given an opportunity to be born again, what kind of person would you choose to be?
76. If you were given one million dollars, what would you buy?
77. If you were given the opportunity to be born again, how would you change how you lived?
78. If you were given the opportunity to mold your partner the way you wanted, how would you mold your partner?
79. If you were given three wishes, what would you wish for?
80. If you were God, how would you transmit or let people know your message?
81. If you were going to a deserted island and could only take three things with you, what would you take? Why?
82. If you were marooned on a desert island with one other person how would you survive?
83. If you were invited to have tea with the Queen of England, what would say?
84. if you were the leader of your country, what would you change?
85. If you were the President, what problem or concern would you work on first?
86. If you were to be stranded on an island, which three things would you bring with you?
87. If you were told that you were going to die tomorrow, what would you do today?
88. If you were walking through the forest and you suddenly saw a tiger, what would you do?
89. If you woke up suddenly because your house was on fire, which three things would you save as you ran outside?
90. If you worked for a store and you saw another employee steal something, would you tell the manager?
91. If your friend could not have a child, would you carry her child for her?
92. If you saw someone in public with toilet paper stuck to their shoe, would you tell them?
93. If you could change one thing that you did that was bad,perhaps a crime or some wrong you did to another person,what would it be?
94. What kinds of problems would you have if you had to always tell the truth?
95. You were told you had a terminal illness and had six months to live. What three things would be most important for you to do
96.If your doctor told you that you had only one month to live, how would you use the time left?
97. What if you have to sacrifice yourself for the sake of saving your mother? What would you do?
98. If you could live perfectly well without sleeping, if you had no need to sleep at all, how would you spend all your nights?
99. If you could be married with a foreign (man/woman), how do you think your life would change?
100. If you had a chance to choose a poor (man/woman) as a (husband/wife) from your culture or a rich (man/woman) from another culture, which would you choose?
101. If you got into traffic accident, what would you do at first?
102. If you could be God, what would you do for humanity?
103. If you could receive praise from a person, what person would it be?

part 2 What kind of praise would you like to receive?

104. If you were a color, what color would you be and why?
105. If you could be a crayon, What color and Why?
106. If you were a fruit, what fruit would you be and why?
107. If you had time machine and you could be transported to any time, the past or the future. What time would you choose?
108. If you could ask an All-Knowing Being one question about life, what would it be?
109. If you could have dinner with anyone (dead OR alive), who would you choose, and why?
110. If you could live forever on earth as it is now, would you? Why or why not?
111. If you could have a free chip put in your brain so that you would automatically be able to speak and understand another language besides English, which language would it be and why?
112. If you were the Queen or King of Britain for a day, what would you do?
113. If you were the President of the USA for a day, what would you do?
114. If you had to spend 100 days on a desert island, what five things would you take with you and why?
115. If you were down on your luck, would you seek the advice of a palm reader,
116. What would you do if you lost your bathing suit while you were swimming?
117. Imagine you woke up one morning to find you had switched bodies with someone you know. What would you do?
118. If you could have any one supernatural power (flying, being invisible), which would you choose and why?
119. If your spouse cheated on you, what would you do?
120. If you were given a choice to live as long as you want, how long would you like to live? If we could live for 300 years, what would the life be like?
121. If you could not differentiate beautiful from ugly, how would choose your spouse? (Perhaps not an appropriate questions, but it was submitted.)
122. What if your cell phone fell in the toilet, what would you do?

Thank you for being a friend...

I am so tired tonight but it is such a good kind of tired. I had a long and somewhat difficult week at work. I feel like have earned my fatigue. And today I hosted what I think was a very successful tea party. I guess this is the year that I am doing all the things I never did in my childhood. For my birthday I had a slumber party and today I had the tea party, and not just with Grover and Holly Hobby. It was so nice to have so many of the women that I love here and just enjoying each others company. I can't say enough how much I have some to appreciate the love and support I get from my girl friends. I hope that when I am old I have I have my own little crew of Golden Girls. (RIP Bea) I love Gil so much but there is stuff you can only talk to about with your girls. Gil doesn't want to talk about my period or the best way to clean a bath tub. Not that we only talk about that stuff. I mean today we talked about cooking and the swine flu and work and gay rights. We talked about religion and our parents and our children and husbands. It was so relaxing. I am exhausted but still mentally renewed.
Now I have had a bath and a glass of wine and I am off today bed to read. What a perfect day.

PST

Do you know about the FLYlady? If you don't and you need a way to combat some of the chaos in your home I highly recommend this system. You can visit her here... http://www.flylady.net
I have found her a remarkable help in our home. I mean I am far from out of the chaos but I am getting there. My favorite thing about it is that it isn't taking any money from my pocket. I always get into things that cost a bunch of money and never see them through which makes me feel guilty and stupid. Anyway. All this does have a point I swear...
So I have restarted the baby steps because I really fell off track when I started the new job and I REALLY feel the need some order in my life right now. So I don't do a new Baby step every day. I do one until I get the hang of it for a few days until I feel like I have the hang of it then I move on to the next. Another beautiful thing about this system is the ability to tailor it to fit YOUR life. Anyway today I was looking at baby step number five...
"Are you hearing any of those nagging negative voices popping into your head? I want you to take a piece of paper and write down what you hear then I want you to turn those ugly words around and say something nice to yourself to negate the ugly words that they said."
Now can I say that this is actually really easy for me. I am a very vocal proponent of PST... Positive Self Talk. I learned this in therapy. (Yeah I was in therapy. Welcome to the 21st century who hasn't?) Sometimes I hear the way I talk to or about myself and I think "If someone ELSE said that to me I would punch them!!" If we don't talk nice to ourselves how can we expect others to?
I try very hard to remember to talk nice to myself as often as possible. When I am stressed out at work you can often find me giving myself a pep talk "You can do this, you are a smart girl, you just need to focus."

It has been a while since I have had the time or energy to update. To be honest I don't have either right now but for you I will take a few moments. The last few weeks have been crazy. The new job is good but it is tasking. After resting on my laurels for 3 years I am just not used to working so hard. Sad but true. I got very used to being lazy. There have been a few moments in the past week where I have thought I made a mistake, that I am not cut out for this gig. I hate not being perfect at something. I am terrible at asking for help because I want my boss to think I am competent. But I just keep reminding myself that you can't get to great with out passing through ok. Someday I will be better. Some day I will kick ass.
In the mean time I will try and keep up with everything. The days are getting longer and sunnier and that makes me so happy. I have been able to hang clothes on the line which is wonderful. Tomorrow is supposed to be extra warm and sunny. Maybe I will come back and give you more of an update while I have my tea in the morning. For now I wish you sweet dreams.

A ramble about house stuff...

Snuggled up in bed tonight a bit early, taking care of this darn chest cold. I am actually feeling much better except the coughing part. I sound like a 90 year old, pack a day smoker. Sexy stuff kids!
We had a really nice, low key day being old married people. We wandered around Kent looking for new lighting fixtures and we thought that was a hot time. Seriously, break out the Jell-O and the Shuffle Board, Gil and I are ready for retirement! No seriously though I do love anything that has to do with redecorating the house. This dinning room is so close to done, I think it might even be the room that is 100% complete first. We just need to throw up a few more feet of trim, pick a new lighting fixture and hem the drapes. I am jittery with excitement to have it done. I thought the living room would be done first but we are still batting around the idea of putting in a bay window or some french doors there. I now have a just feeling that is one room that will always be in flux.
Tomorrow we are going to work on clearing out the work shop so that I can start to refinish my cabinet. I am excited for that project as well. I think I must just excite easily! :)
My next BIG project with be the computer room and finishing the bathroom. I was checking out prices of pedestal sinks when we were at Kent today and they really are not very expensive. Of course I haven't told Gil that I also want to re-tile the floor but it is such a small room I think I will be able to do it myself without much effort. The paint will also have to be touched up when I put in the pedestal sink, which is fine, I need to fix where I got the hair dye on the wall anyway, that damn stuff just won't come off.
Anyway once the main level is mostly completed I can turn all my attention up stairs! I am so excited for that!! (Yup there I go being excited again, what can I say?!) Hopefully in the near future David will start on the mural at the top of the stairs. That is so thrilling to me. To have a wall of ART in our home. I mean I love colour and part of the joy of owning a house is getting to paint, but even solid colours get a little boring after a while but this art project is going to be amazing, especially since the artist in question is so talented. Plus it means so much more to have art made by people you know, people you love. I know I could find something in one of those big poster books at the paint shop that I could live with but seeing a painting done by some one I love, each time I go in and out of my bedroom, that will mean the world.
The bedroom it's self is still a bit of a problem. I have idea but no inspiration. We would really love to incorporate our collection of Asian art and Buddha's in here, ideally we would like the colour scheme to be red and black with out being too dark (How do you do that??) but I have yet to find anything that ties it all together for me. I wish we could do one of those home renovation shows where they read your mind and give you the room you always wanted but just couldn't pull together. It will all come in time. I know this. I am just excited and impatient.
One last note before I run away. I was going out to the car this afternoon and I notice spring flowers peeping through in my garden!! I am over the friggin' moon. I am going out to play for a moment if the rain will hold off just a little while. YAY!! Spring is VERY welcome this year. Winter felt VERY VERY long!

Too Long Gone...

Hey sorry about the long absence, life in Meggyland has been nothing short of chaos. Between Gil basically living in Toronto and trying to adjust to the new job while maintaining a social life I have just been bagged every day. I think about coming home and blogging but my energy is just gone. But tonight I feel like 10lbs of crap in a 5lb. bag and so I am just sitting here watching crap tv (downloaded) and catching up on emails, and now talking to you. Gil is in Toronto but will be home later tonight. I hate it when he is away when I am sick, I know that there is nothing he can do to make the cold go away but having him here makes me feel better. It is psychosomatic. Anyway, tonight I flake. Which gives me a chance to tell you that this past weekend I reached the height of my middle class dream. I got a deep freezer! Oh yeah baby, there is no stopping me now. I am actually really thrilled, don't let my sarcasm fool you. I genuinely feel triumphant. YAY us. Don't worry we aren't heading out for a mini-van anytime soon.
Work is great, I confess to frequent feelings of overwhelming panic but they are passing. I am so glad the guy I am replacing has been there with me holding my hand, metaphorically speaking. He is done after next week and then I have to swim in the deep end on my own and it is a bit scary to think about. I know I will get good at it eventually but my inner perfectionist can't stand that I am not great at this yet. But so far I haven't really lost it, I came really close to crying once. Just one time but I fought it.
The only issue that comes up repeatedly is a personal one, a demon I am going to have to stare down sooner or later in order to make working there a non-issue. every afternoon I work at the VG site, well at least Tuesday to Friday. I walk into that building with 1000 things on my mind, full of to do lists and notes to myself about all the things I need get done in the next 4 hours. But then there is a new thought. a thought that creeps in, stealthy, from the depth of my mind. I can't predict where or when but I know that it will come. It finds me and it grips me with stark terror and says "your mother died here. Right here, right in this very building. The last wall she saw were these ones. Her last breath was right here." So far I have stuffed it down hard and fast before it has a chance to really take hold. I stuff it down and keep counting, I stuff it down and bring someone change, I stuff it down run to the next task. But I know there is going to come a day when I try to stuff it and that compartment will be full to capacity. I am not looking forward to that day.
okay, enough heavy now. Off to feel icky in bed with some hot lemon and honey.

Update!

Okay it has been a while but in my defense I have been ungodly busy. I finished at Maxwell, THANK GOD! I feel much less like I have to censor every thing I say about that place now, so be prepared for a big long rant SOON. I have also started at the Hospitals. So far I am really liking it and although I am not all that good at my job yet I know I will be. It takes time to learn new things. I had a small crisis of faith on Friday when I was hot, tired and I could not figure out what I was doing but I got through it. I am looking forward to going back tomorrow so that is a good thing. Life is all manner of weird at the moment and I will try and touch more on that in the near future but for right now I just wanted to say that I think I made the right choice and that feels good.

wow....

I am having such a hard time concentrating today at work, knowing the end is so near. I don't want to call and talk to people. I don't want to answer the phone. My desk is all cleared out and clean, there is no real trace of me left in my veal feeding pen. I am ready to be done. I can't imagine how unbearable Monday and Tuesday will be.

Upon consulting the OED

After three days of getting up at 5:30 am here is how I feel.
beat, broken-down, burned out, collapsing, consumed, dead on one's feet, distressed, dog-tired, done for, done in, drained, drooping, droopy, drowsy, empty, enervated, exasperated, fagged, faint, fatigued, fed up, finished, flagging, haggard, irked, irritated, narcoleptic, overtaxed, overworked, petered out, played out, pooped, prostrated, run-down, sleepy, spent, stale, tuckered out, wasted, worn out.
I know I will get used to it but so far I am NOT loving it.

Day dreaming

I have a great idea for a new TV show based on a day dream I had the other day.I wish it could he an hour long drama however we all know that if it is even loosely based on my life it will be a half hour sitcom. It takes place in a hospital, which is a pretty popular setting for good shows, however based on my day dream about life will be like in my new job, the doctors and nurses will be purely secondary characters. The real stars of the show will be the rest of the hospital staff.Accountants, clerks, assistants, maintenance crew, retail staff etc.The lead actress would be a perky brunet who is funny and bright. (Think Sarah Rue on Less Then Perfect.) Each week viewers would be treated to 30 minutes of a knee slapping display of how these “little people” are the ones who truly keep the hospital running like a well oiled machine. The main character, let call her Maggie just for giggles, she would hold everyone together like glue. She would dispense wisdom and solve problems for loads of people.Nurses and Doctors would come to her for love life advice. Of course she would have a core group of friends who were always getting into scrapes or making some kind of mischief. Once and a while she would even have an encounter with a patient, with both positive and negative outcomes.
Oh yeah, I would totally watch this show!

Resetting the clock...

Okay so on of the nice perks about my current job is that Gil and I work just a few blocks from each other and fairly close our home which means that in the mornings I only have a 12 minute car ride, with my awesome hubby, which means to get to work on time I have to leave the house roughly at 8am. Yeah, I know, I am spoiled. HOWEVER my new job starts at 7am.... and is on the other side of the harbour which means I will need to be on the bus at roughly 6:15 am. Oh the inhumanity. In order to accomplish the superhuman feat I will have to be out of bed at 5:30 am. Since it seems like a terrible idea to do this on the very first day of work I have started my training schedule. Last week I started getting up at 6am and really wasn't so bad. Truth be told I even kind of liked it but I was pretty lazy about it. To step up my game as of today the alarm goes off at 5:30 and I have to do everyting that I would do in order to leave to house at 6:10. There were some glitches today. But that is good, that is part of the learning process. For example I did lay out my clothes last night but forgot to make sure I had all the pieces so I spent 5 minutes groping around in the dark bedroom looking for the bra I wanted while trying not to wake my slumbering husband. Also there is just some stuff that is going to have to get done the night before. My gym bag wasn't packed and neither was lunch. If I had to do those things today I would have been screwed or eating granola bars and skipping the gym.
On the other hand since I didn't really have to leave the house at 6:10, my dishes are washed, the laundry has been flipped and I tuned out on facebook for a while. I am pretty much ahead of the game. We shall see how I feel this evening but I am guessing it will be lights out pretty early for me.